"Life Sucks"....."I Miss Him"♥

Today, I carved my arm at school. I used a michanical pencil. I wrote, I'M FAT. My A.M. isn't happy about it really. I haven't gotten a chance to talk to her long enough to know exactly how she feels about it. But I know she isn't happy. I knew she wouldn't like it before I showed her. I still have to tell my bf, I just hope he dosn't get to this before I have a chance to tell him. I don't want him to have to find out this way.

I called him and no one answered, so I called later, no one answered, I called again 20 minutes later, his lil bro picked up and said he wasn't there. So I was like dang, I really wanted to talk to him. I miss him so much. I haven't seen him for 2 weeks and 3 days. I miss everything about him. I miss the way he looks at me. I miss the way he talks to me, how he stares into my eyes and tells me he loves me. I miss his smile. I miss his touch. I miss his smell, his laugh, his kiss. I miss how he holds me, and I'm pressed against his warm body. I miss laying on the couch with him, and almost falling asleep in his arms, until his lil bro annoys us. I miss beating him up when he tries to tickle me. I even miss it when he tickles me, even though I hate to be tickled. He is the one person I don't get really mad at when he does it. All I do is just beat him up,(but he kinda lets me) I miss him. He is my life, my world, my everything.